Izvještaj (hrvatski prijevod)

Kao što već znamo iz prijašnjih izvještaja, Gurudevin se tumor od zadnjeg festivala prilično proširio lijevom stranom bedra na limfne čvorove i mišiće. Od zadnje proslave bio je na intenzivnom liječenju i strogoj dijeti s kojom se pokušalo usporiti širenje tumora i pokušati mu omogućiti zadnji posjet nekim yatrama.

Gurudeva prima puno lijekova kroz kateter koji mu je ugrađen direktno u lijevu stranu srca. Prije 10 dana Gurudeva je primjetio da iznad katetera osjeća lupanje i preosjetljivost, koja je kasnije izgledala kao nateklina ključne kosti. Misleći da ze kateter inficiran odvezli smo ga u bolnicu da mu izvade katater. Doktor koji je pregledao oteklinu želio ju je najprije snimiti kako bi bio siguran da li treba kateter skinuti ili ne, dok smo čekali krvne nalaze prije snimanja, Gurudeva se lijevom rukom htjeo nasloniti na  aktovku, kada je odjednom začuo "škljoc" i trgnuo se od bola.  Boljelo ga je tako jako da nije mogao micati lijevu ruku a oteklina je postajala sve veća. Zbog novonastale situacije  snimanje je požureno. Iako smo svi  bili jako zabrinuti da je Gurudeva nešto slomio nitko od nas nije bio spreman čuti sto se na snimanju otkrilo. Otkrilo se da je oteklina u stvari tumor koji je zahvatio lijevu stranu ključne kosti, i sad se tumor širi kostima. Tumor je toliko zahvatio ključnu kost da je samo malen dio kosti ostao netaknut, i on je sad puknuo. Tumor je sada zahvatio limfne čvorove, mišiće i kosti. Gurudevina lijeva ruka je sada povijena i teško da će zacjeliti.

Sad mu je kretanje lijeve strane otežano zbog loma ključne kosti i Njegove amputacije. On osjeća da će otići puno ranije nego što se mi nadamo i očekujemo to. Prekinuo je mnoge tretmane liječenja, ali je ipak nastavio s nekima kako bi usporio tumor i navršio neke preostale poslove.

Gurudeva je danas u Washintonu održao predivno i snažno predavanje iz svoje nove knjige Beggar 4 (prosjak) – Umrijeti prije smrti. Koja će biti dostupna za 6 tjedana.

A od ponedjeljka će se moći slušati na http://www.btswami.com/

Također je na današnjem predavanju rekao kako je najbolji način da se nekoga održi na životu slijediti njegove upute  i isticat ga kao primjer ne samo pojedincima nego i zajednici.

Zbog svoje velike ljubavi prema nama zabrinut je da će mnogi od nas doći u krizu vjere    nakon njegovog odlaska.

Zato ako pružimo utjehu jedni drugima i  u ISKCONu uzmemo utočište Svetog imena učinit čemo svijet boljim za njegovo zadovoljstvo

Gurudevina unutarnja meditacija postala je vrlo duboka kao i osječaj poniznosti  koji je neopisivo bolan za nas ostale. Jer kad je čuo dijagnozu, rekao je da ne želi nikome biti teret i obveza.

Zahvaljujemo svima na neprekidnoj molitvi i ljubavi – koje su mu sad najpotrebniji.

Izvještaj (na engleskom jeziku):

As you know from the previous update, Gurudeva"s cancer had somewhat flared up in the lymph nodes and muscle in the left upper thigh area since the festival. Since the festival he has been continuing his intense treament programme and a restricted diet as a means to slow down the cancer and potentially facilitate one last visit to some yatras.

Gurudeva takes a lot of his medications via a catheter which inserts directly
into the left side of the heart. About 10 days ago Gurudeva noticed that just
above the catheter, he was experiencing some throbbing and tenderness.  This then progressed to a swelling over his left collar bone a few days ago.
Thinking the cather may be infected, a few of us went to the hospital with
Gurudeva yesterday, with a view to having the catheter removed.  The doctor who took a look at the swelling wanted a scan to see what the swelling was before he decided whether or not the catheter needed to come out.  Whilst waiting for some blood tests prior to the scan, Gurudeva went to support his brief case with his left hand when the next thing he heard was a "crack" and he suddenly jerked back in pain.  Gurudeva was in a lot of pain, the swelling had become bigger and he couldn"t move his left arm very well.  In light of this, the scan was arranged for more quickly.  We were all very worried that Gurudeva may have broken something but no one was prepared for what the scan found.  It turned out that the swelling was infact a bone tumour on the left collar bone as a result of the cancer now having spread to the bones.  The tumour had eaten away at so much of the collarbone that only a thin layer of normal bone was left and this is what had cracked. So the cancer is now in the lymph nodes, muscle and bones.  Gurudeva"s left arm is now in a sling and it is unlikely it will heal.

He currently has limited movement in the left side of the body due to the
fracture of the collarbone and his amputation.  He feels that he is going to
leave much sooner than we all expected or hoped for.  He has cut down on lot of his previous treatments but is continuing with a few simple things to try and slow down the cancer in order to settle a few loose ends.Gurudeva gave a beautiful and powerful class today in DC from his new book Beggar 4 - Die
before Dying which will be available in 6 weeks.  The class will be available
to listen to on monday on http://www.btswami.com/

Gurudeva"s internal meditation has become very deep and his expressions of
humility are heart rendering.  His main concern after the news was that he
didn"t want to be burden or disturbance to anyone.  He has so much deep love for everyone but he is concerned that many of us will have a lot of
difficulties in our devotional lives during and after this transitition.  If we
can try and take shelter of eachother and ISKCON as a whole more, shelter of the holy names more deeply and co operate with eachother better this would please him very much.  Gurudeva was saying in class today that the best way to keep anyone alive is by following their instructions and exemplifying their teachings not just individually but also as a community.

We thank you all for your continuing instense prayers and love - they are much needed at this time.

Yours in the Service of Guru and Gauranga
With Love, Your aspiring Servant, Citi-Sakti Devi Dasi